Tired Eyes

A couple of weeks ago I released my first single in a long time and I have been so excited about it! I originally released it using Reverb Nation, which I had used in the past, but it wasn't appearing on a good portion of the stores and streaming services I wanted it to. So, I switched to DistroKid, as suggested by my friend, Devin, who also produced this song for me.

This song is so special to me for a lot of reasons - I'll save that for another post. Music and writing is something that has always played a huge role in my life. I've discovered it is a necessity for me.

When I was in the thick of some really difficult times, music became very much a background player for a long time. It was still there, but the creative aspect of it was gone. Writing felt impossible. As I numbed myself to the pain and reality of what was happening around me, I numbed the intense feelings, thoughts, and stunted the processing that takes place when I write.

In this last year I have slowly been writing again. At first the thoughts, the words, the music started as a slow trickle, but then in the last couple of months it's been a full on downpour of songs that I think were always inside of me. It has been so healing for me. So many thoughts and feelings that were kept so deep have finally reached the surface, allowing the wounds of my soul to really heal. Music is powerful. Creativity is powerful. Having the combination of the two this last year has been such a game changer.

There have been many songs that have come out of me lately, but this is the one that led me to action. I knew after I wrote it and shared a clip of it that I needed to record it. I'm really happy with how it turned out and am so grateful I got to have my friend, Devin Barrus, produce it for me. I hope you enjoy it and that the message intended is conveyed. Follow the links below to purchase or add it to your library.

Lyrics

This drive going northbound

On the I-15

Driving past Salt Lake City

On my way to where home

Used to be

Every time I drive that way

The closer I get

My heart hurts

This was supposed to be my reality

But it faded like a dream

And I don't know

Where home's gonna go

And I don't know

What my future

Will hold

Listening to a song that breaks your heart

Cuz those tired eyes

They don't know what's gonna start

But then again do I

Do I know what it's like

To hear the pain in

Their cries

When I walk away

When I pull when they wanna stay

This shouldn't be some dumb love game

And I don't know

Where home's gonna go

And I don't know

What my future

Will hold

But it's not just me

It's not just me

It's those two pair of tired eyes

And perfect faces in the back seat

How many years of our lives

Will feel like we're just wastin' time

How many bumps in the road

Do we need to hit before it's time

To call it quits and go home

And I don't know

Where home's gonna go

And I don't know

What my future

Will hold

But it's not just me

It's not just me

It's those two pair of tired eyes

And perfect faces in the back seat

But I'm here

I'm just driving

Heading northbound

On the I-15

Driving past Salt Lake, to my right

Once upon a time it was my sanctuary